full
empty

and there was nothing.
nothing left in the end.


introduction
confession

zishing
04-12-1992
no preferences
nothing particular.
the place people come to for help.
and that's about it.


out
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Amos
Andy
Baka-Tsuki
Caroline
ChinHian
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Kee
Leonard
LiJie
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Matilda
Max
MelWeh
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(Friday, June 27, 2008/9:45 PM)

sun
lately there hasn't been much to say.
i sigh at the lack of good things to appreciate now that the standard has been fully set.

of failed three-word stories.
and how time flies.

now we're all going.
to go.

and these will be our farewell times.

and now to copy that line again.


for our meeting
the seasons spent,

our hearts which have grown,
and the farewell...


...thank you.


(Tuesday, June 24, 2008/10:13 PM)

greetings


*EDIT*:
oh yes.
and thank you tenmon.
your music added alot to the mood.
so there you go.

thank you very much.


alright.
that's it.
yes.
it's over.

i'm kind of regretting it finished now.
but yes.
what's done is done.

"one day i'm going to read it all over again for the nth time and cry all the same"

i guess quoting myself works.
one day i will.

it's kind of like a dream.
where we are all together.
yet we will eventually part.


in this place.
there have been greetings.
farewells.
and reunions.

it all began,
with a little bit of luck.

people.
materials.
events.
feelings.

they all gathered here.

eventually,
it grew into something
very large.
and very precious.

this is.
a comfortable place.
that everyone
holds dear in their hearts.

its form varies.
from person to person.
but for me.
it is.


...


it's empty after that line.
maybe i should fill it up.


it is the greatest place.


...maybe.


what an ending.
and what an ending.

it's a pity there aren't any others like this.
but maybe that's the good thing.

either way.
i'll be waiting.
i'll still be waiting.
for that dream.

and that will be all.


for our meeting.
the seasons spent.
our hearts which have grown.
and the farewell.



thank you.


(Sunday, June 22, 2008/9:14 PM)

reality





Lovers In Japan (Acoustic)
Coldplay
Viva la Vida or Death and All His Friends
[0:23/03:44] [-|---------]

and it all ends tonight.
we'll all have our eyes shut like those two on top.

parting is such sweet sorrow.
but i'll save these words for when it's my turn.

and to all my friends.
i present to you this statement.

i wonder.
i wonder what i will do when we all go our separate ways.

well.
i only have an hour left.

which i will spend trying to get to sleep.
but i don't take that long, really.

so half an hour it shall be.
the other half i present to the world as my compensation.

*EDIT*:
actually, i'm still here.
oh well.
no compensation, i guess.

i'm still thinking of a title for my story.
"everything will be alright" totally in lowercase just doesn't seem to fit the bill.

don't worry, i'll tell myself.
in the end i'll come up with something myself.

or so i think.
but i'll leave that to think itself out.


it's summer now.
and the violets are blossoming.

and on that happy, and peaceful, hilly road.
two people shall walk.

together again.


where everything will be alright.


(Saturday, June 21, 2008/9:42 PM)

inspiration


okay.
so now i have to become some sort of author.
meeting deadlines and editorials.
all at the price of nothing.

or rather, i get no pay.

my family is slow when it comes to purchasing things.
not like i can't live with it.
more importantly
now i have to think up of something to write.

by far.
my favourite is life in technicolor.
i am non-conformist that way.
it's good to have my own preferences.

and now.
to fill in the rest of this with lyrics.


Lovers In Japan (Acoustic)
Coldplay
Viva la Vida or Death and All His Friends
[0:27/03:44] [-|---------]


Lovers keep on the road you're on
Runners until the race is run
Soldiers you've got to soldier on
Sometimes even the right is wrong

They are turning my head out
To see what I'm all about
Keeping my head down
To see what it feels like now
But I have no doubt
One day we're gonna get out

Tonight maybe we're gonna run
Dreaming of the Osaka sun
Ohhhh ohh ohh
Dreaming of when the morning comes

They are turning my head out
To see what I'm all about
Keeping my head down
To see what it feels like now
But I have no doubt
One day the sun will come out


and yes i have no doubt.
because one day.


the sun will come out.


(Wednesday, June 18, 2008/12:24 PM)

denial

[KAA]Azumanga Daioh - 25
[0:16/24:11] [|----------]

well.
it's almost coming to an end.
better make the best of it.
soon everything will start all over again.













and yes.
i have finally gotten over my laziness.
and finished it on hard.
it wasn't that hard i guess.

but still, it's all a game.
meant to be played that way.
and as we close one chapter.
we shall begin the next.


for what else do we have but the story of our lives.


(Tuesday, June 17, 2008/3:41 PM)

live the life


alright.
so i have run out of 1 word titles.
at least for today.
i shall be satisfied with just this.

and now.
to add a few lyrics.
so i can fill up today.
i have to get translating too.

i don't know why i get no drive to work until i'm piled in it.


Violet Hill
Coldplay
Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends
[0:52/03:43] [--|--------]


Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow, white snow
Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below
When the future's architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low
If you love me won't you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And a fox became God
Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft
Bury me in armor
When I’m dead and hit the ground
My nerves are poles that unfroze
And if you love me won't you let me know

I don't want to be a soldier
Who the captain of some sinking ship
Would stow, far below
So if you love me why'd you let me go?

I took my love down to violet hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still
So if you love me, won't you let me know?
If you love me won't you let me know?



ah, summer sonic.
i can't wait until the day i go to japan on impulse.
maybe by then i won't act on impulse so often.
but then it's just impulse after all.

can't hurt, can it?

then we shall record.


in a bakery, a nunnery, a magic shop, and a church.


(Monday, June 16, 2008/9:39 PM)

greyscale

Life In Technicolor
Coldplay
Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends
[0:02/02:31] [|----------]














ah what i would give.
but i already have it.
so what should i give.
i wonder.

okay and now.
i don't have anything better to write.
so.


Viva La Vida
Coldplay
Viva La Vida or Death And All His Friends
[2:47/04:02] [-------|---]


I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy’s eyes
Listened as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead, long live the king"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
Missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you'd gone there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was a wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn’t believe what I’d become
Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can’t explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

Hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can’t explain
I know St Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world


and now i'm done filling the lines.
it's my time.
so goodbye.
time for me to settle down into sweet music.


it's a ruled world.


(Sunday, June 15, 2008/12:37 PM)

attitude
[KAA] Azumanga Daioh - 21
[15:01/24:10] [-------|---]



well looks like that morning attitude thing didn't get to me.
i'm still lazy to think up of something.
i also haven't found anything nice to put up as a skin yet.
oh well.

not like i need one anyway.


clear night
TENMON & Eiichiro Yanagi
ef - a tale of memories Original Soundtrack 2~fortissimo
[0:04/02:05] [|----------]

it's not my fault.
after all i need to get inspiration to write something don't i.


it might be fiction.
but just look around.
this fiction is closer than you think.

fairytale dreams and perfect worlds.
this utopia is what you might get.
if you can even see it that way.

i have to stop this somehow.
change for the greater good.
maybe if i could turn a little.

oh the difference it would make.

i sometimes contemplate my life as a whole.
going through it piece by piece.
and wondering why i don't regret a bit of it.

well maybe one thing i'm dissatisfied with is.
that for now.
there's no one i can really help.

but no news is good news.
probably.
i'm pretty useless anyway.

the future is uncertain.
but fiction is nearer than you think.
so maybe i'll just continue.

putting my trust into this road.
hoping that it'll lead to somewhere good.
and even if it doesn't.

i'll know that at least i tried.

the reality is there.
even in fiction.
i know that's what happens most of the time.

maybe that's because they give up.
it's not easy to persevere in the first place.
what a tragedy.

whatever might happen though.
i'm not going to lose sight.
of the small glimmer that hovers above me.

because somehow.
just somehow.
i know.

that if i wait.
as long as i don't lose that small glimmer.
i know.

that my dream.
this fiction that is closer than it seems.
this utopia that i though could never exist in this modern no-nonsense world.

will appear right before me.
or behind.
but i will know.


and i will turn around to greet it.


(Saturday, June 14, 2008/9:48 PM)

true
i have completed 2 lines today.
have to get my gears in line again.
after all, it's back to school soon.

emo lines tomorrow.
maybe i had some ideas just now.
just lazy to fill it in as usual.
maybe my morning attitude will be better.

and now i shall proceed to listen to something that will make everything else worthwhile.


for this world is filled with regret.


(Friday, June 13, 2008/3:12 PM)

wipe
EDIT:
oh no.
i forgot about xlation again.
oh well.
guess i'll get to work soon enough.




existence
TENMON & Eiichiro Yanagi
ef - a tale of memories Original Soundtrack 2
fortissimo
[0:01/02:51] [|----------]


well.
i guess these two don't really go together.
but i am back.
yes.

and my mom went to sign me up for swimming.
lucky it's cancelled now.
but she was acting in my best interest anyway.
right right.

i shall just move on to describing what we did then:
1) we taught melvin how to ride a bike (of course the constructive stuff goes first).
2) we sat there and did completely useless things.
3) eat.
4) sleep.

but it always feels better when you're with friends, no?



...



well okay.
1 hour break there.

anyway.
i guess it was fine.
that's all the detail maybe.
i was thinking of writing some emo stuff earlier on.

but i relinquished that.
that's me.

and so.
off we go.
into the city of dreams.

where wonders abound.
amidst all the sound.
that proves of no existence.


yes i'm not making sense.
but learning how to ride a bike is the way.
so why don't we all go ride one today,
and feel the breeze in your face.

because that breeze might never come back again.

EDIT:
home is the best.
oh and, thanks by the way kee.
i guess that's what friendship is after all.
and good friendship at that.

enjoying life together.


(Monday, June 09, 2008/11:54 AM)

degenerate


need i say more?


the past few days have been somewhat.
i don't know how to put it.
as long as i'm too lazy to write.
i'll just fill in this sentence with a filler.

of coloured displays and bottled produce.
at least now i've sorted out mahoraba such that it goes by chapter.
who knows how many times i read it the wrong way already.
i still got the story though.

doesn't really matter.

well.
2 weeks have more or less gone by just like that.
or rather.
16 weeks of mad work is about to follow.



there is no secret ingredient.
there is no cake.
the cake is a lie.

but yes.
mahoraba is a touching story.
stuff like this is rare.
i have yet to find one like it.

and now since i have nothing to say here.
let me present two filler sentences.
and of course, a third.
oh did i mention a fourth?

but yes, it shall be those lines i typed sometime back.
maybe because i had nothing else to write then.
i always have no ideas.
or maybe i'm just too lazy to think up of something.

after all, this is a place for random musings and casual talk.
hopefully the next few things will fill up the page and make this post look big.



One has distress.
Another has hopeless longing.
There, accept such sorrow.
Our precious, treasured place.

Heartful days.


(Thursday, June 05, 2008/8:45 AM)

contrary


i wonder who's that in the picture.
anyway.

for most of the time now i'm still sitting here doing nothing.
can't even bring myself to type now.

or maybe it's just that my mind is kind of blank.
then again it may be full.
then again who knows.

but yes.
i admit life is tough.
so maybe i should get working.

but then again, what's the break for.
it's to break.
then again i've not been doing anything during non-break.

maybe someone will get a cheap thrill of watching me argue with myself.

at least i know i'm on the other road.


away from everyone. but yet with everyone.


(Monday, June 02, 2008/9:43 AM)

idea
one day i should open up the dictionary and look for some exuberant word to put as the title.

well now.
life is good.
at least for now.
i guess we could just leave it at that.


I Will Possess Your Heart
Death Cab for Cutie
Narrow Stairs
[3:11/08:26] [----|------]

36 times was it.
hm, seems more than that now.
of dark themes and relaxed moods.
i guess this is what people live for now these days.

well i'm starting to not make sense again.
at least i'm getting to work.
my days are fuller than before.
and i still get space to talk.

so we'll call it freedom within occupation.

well.
i guess that's it.
so we'll just leave it at that.

and now for a random song line from a random song that any random person would never randomly know about.

make that two lines.


Humans have done all they've done and haven't taken responsibility.
An invincible, unmatched power is necessary.


or should i go on.


...


i randomly decided against it.
so there we go.


off into the freedom within occupation that is extinct anywhere else.